I do what it takes to my vision happen. Even if it takes waiting on tables so my family and I can get by so that investors and those who contribute to my crowd funding campaign realize that I’m not living off their dime. It isn’t only me who is sacrificing for my vision, it’s my whole family. Am I that selfish?
I think I’ve been staring at the blinking cursor for minutes now, pondering that thought. Am I that selfish? I’ve been making films for fifteen years now. I’ve never had a break, I’ve never had a big hit. But there is something deep within myself, knowing, feeling, that the project I’m currently working on; http://www.indiegogo.com/billboardpaypal could change that.
I never thought that about InSeachOf. Yes it was successful, it’s been in the top ten all time dramas on Hulu for over four years and I accomplished what I set out to do, people thinking twice before they act. I needed to make InSearchOf, at that time in my life and it was a huge risk to make that movie, some of which I’m still feeling four years later. I almost couldn’t join my church because of it. Something that I created years ago I’m still sacrificing for. I don’t mind it though, it’s a risk you take by having persistence of vision.
Am I selfish for continuing on my journey to make films? I asked my eldest daughter, “What am I?” Her routine response, “What do you mean?”
I clarify, “What am I? When you describe me to your friends what do you say? You’re my step dad, you make movies…. “
I ask, “Does it bother you that we don’t have certain things?” “No because you and my mom do things you like to do. You help people, you make people happy, you’re both creative.”
“Does it bother you that I work nights?” “A little bit, but you have to.” “Would you like me to get a normal job?” “What’s a normal job? Don’t you work just to make money?”
I love that girl!
I have to focus and do all things necessary to make Billboard an Uncommon Contest for Common People! happen with in the next year. I’m going to need a lot of help and support from friends, the community and strangers to make this film come to life, I know I have my family’s.